2004-05-17 - 1:13 p.m.
i saw the offspring last night. i like that band a lot. they played almost all old stuff and only about 3 songs off the newest album. it was a great time. as for anything else, this summer, and perhaps forever i am going to try harder to eliminate all superflous drives and activities. just the shit that is important. i have very little to say right now. i feel very uninteresting and boring. i had a weird dream last night where i beat the shit out of some conservative hick. i meant to get up today at about 10:30 but i just went back to sleep until 11:45. i have to work today, i should be signing up a new client. i am considering making a major, fundamental, sweeping life change. i went to my friend ternes' wedding on saturday. it was a good time. i was very akward seeing as it was a wedding and i was not wearing a suit. i brought sarah, no one else brought anybody. joe papa was the best man, and made an amusing speech at the reception. the ceremony was in the gazebo in front of the elk grove pavilion, ironically the site of Thought Crime's last show(my band in high school). the reception was at gaylord's by woodfield. it turns out that i like indian food, i had no idea. it filled me up very quickly. later, sarah and i went to see vanhellsing. it had monsters in it, that was good enough for me. and kate beckinsale is fucking hot. i did some thinking about marriage which i think is a normal thing people do around weddings. i started thikning that i cannot imagine being around the same person all the time. she would always be there. i cannot grasp the notion that there is a woman that i will want to see all the time, or even more outlandish, that there is a woman that wants to be around me all the time. the whole idea seems illogical. but then again i have no idea what the world holds, stranger things have happened. and what strange world it is anyway. good and evil. they come from the same place. they come from individuals and how they decide to bring each into the world. i used to use this as an argument that good and evil do not exist(see beyond good and evil by neischte think i spelled his name wrong)but there truly and absolutely is good and evil at work on earth. i don't think any human is born good or bad, they become that way in their actions. i have to eat something.
"How many times is it going to take, until someone around you hears what you say. You feel like a fool, you feel like a lie." All I Want- the Offspring
