2004-09-26 - 10:21 p.m.
so here is a subject i haven't been writing about in here, but now i'm going to start. for those of you who read this and do not already know, i am converting to Judaism. i have found where i belong spiritually, and i am in the process to becoming a full-fledged Jew. most people who know me well have not been surprised. its true i spent the last five years a devout agnostic, but this religion really fits me. i don't feel like going into it too much right now, but there will be more about all o fit in the coming months. this weekend was my first Yom Kippur. i fasted and was at temple from 10:15am until 6:15pm pn saturday. truthfully the fasting was not that bad at all despite my crazy metabolism. i've been in the process for about two and a half months now. and i didn't tell everyone all at once. the worst was telling my mom, she cried and stil doesn't like the fact that i'm doing it. anyhow, after the services some very nice people from the congregation invited me out to eat with them for break the fast. i had a great time. it really feels like some sort of extended second family. i know how weird this all sounds. truth be told, this exploration into Judaism is one of the only things thats been making me feel at all good lately. gravetones played a show last night, it was fun as hell. went to a party and saw mike saul again finally, its always good to see him. i had a good time at the party, i felt like being out which i haven't felt like being in about a month. talked to lindsay tonight, i have to get my leather jacket back. i let her wear it one night this summer when it was unseasonably cold. don't you guys love the "get stuff back" part? i hate it. we are both very busy and i don't think she's going to be making me a priority, so i don't know how i'm going to handle her. i'm just going to do what feels right. tomorrow is my last day of observations at lake park high school, i'm glad. today at dinner my mom and dad basically informed me that i don't make enough money. i already knew that, and i feel bad enough about it. also when i woke up on friday my car had its driver side door bashed in. more expenses i don't need. i'm not too thrilled about anything right now. i'm going to try and get some sleep; there is a sense of dread about how long tomorrow is going to be.
"A minute here and a minute there." From Out Of Nowhere- Faith No More
