2005-06-10 - 3:53 a.m.
work at this new gym that is actually my old gym is going remarkably well. everything else has become almost nothing. we now are on the show with the Adicts on july 5th at the logan square auditorium so that is good. i feel even less like going out and doing things. i'm enjoying going to work and being at work too much to want to do much else. nothing is fixed, but perhaps i'm doing a good job of ignoring right now. i like turning my social life off sometimes; i find it difficult to care that i have. of course there are things on my mind, but i'm doing a good job of letting those things not matter right now. they probably will later, and so be it.
i has been almost a full year since i stopped doing something that was very bad for me. i get the urge every once and awhile but it has been very hard not to do it, but i haven't.
i get the feeling that this summer will not be anything like the last one, and mroe like it was two summers ago: lots and lots of dead time with nothing of value in it. and somehow that realization isn't that bad. i get the urge to turn it all off and i'm trying, i always only sort of works. i feel like i shouldn't be trying though
"No one is who we know" AFI
