2005-10-06 - 10:00 a.m.
i now live in a small studio apartment. it is rather depressing. the only thing that makes it all right is that with any luck i will never be in it. i had to move all my stuff into it by myself. matress, box spring, bureau, all of it. it was not fun and it is a good thing i am strong. work is stressing me out. i am being threatened by higher ups because i work out too much. isn't it fucked up that mybosses at a gym think i work out too much. they say i need to spend more time looking for new clients. like i don't have enough to be doing already. i've begun observations at a high school. i like the school a lot and could see working there one day. i'll be going back again onfriday morning. a girl i took out last week has not been calling me back. shocking. i get the feeling i'll be watching a lotof movies in my new studio by myself. i'm reminded of when i lived at home. spending a lot of time alone and watching bad movies. maybe i'll forget that anyone else exists.
i got text messages from lindsay a few nights ago at 3:11 and 3:12am. the same message both times "what r u doing 2night?" i was confused and half asleep so i called her. she wanted me to come meet her at rush and division. seeing as i had to be up in less that five hours i didn't go. the strange thing is that she's not supposed to be calling me. the only time i said she was allowed to call me is if she needed specifically me for something. maybe she forgot. maybe i'll call her this week. maybe she really did want to see me.
i'm into a band called Death From Above right now. that is one of the best names i have ever heard.
Rosh Hashanah was very cool this year. i went to temple monday night and tuesday and wednesday mornings. tuesday night i celebrated with bekah and her family. i'm their adopted Jewish family member. it was a good time.
"And if you love him tell him so" ?- Death From Above
